In 2010, I got my first tattoo. It says Music Dance on my foot.
When I was 12 or so, I started dancing HipHop. I was intrigued and soon after started my own dance crew with 3 of my girlfriends.
I made choreographies and we trained regularly for shows I honestly have no idea where I took the courage from to do all this. Either way, it was amazing!
As life got busier with college and university, I had less and less time to dance.
Many years later, I met a singer who wanted me to make choreographies for his music videos.
What seemed like the dream of my life turned into a nightmare.
I trained two groups with about 20 people for the videos...
I spent so much money and time and energy on getting ready for these videos...
We filmed everything...
And suddenly, everything fell apart. The videos were never published and I felt so ashamed in front of my entire crew for their efforts and energy. I just wanted to disappear silently and never come back again...
For whatever reason, I still got the tattoo after all this. Almost like my soul wanted to remind me that music and dance was my purest essence, so I wouldn’t forget.
Not much happened in the following few years as I started working full time and was consumed by climbing up the ladder at work and becoming more „successful“. It’s all u wanted at that time.
Until last year when I spent a few weeks alone and „by coincidence“ came across on YouTube. (Ask me for my fav movies and they’re all dance movies mixes with love stories!
I started dancing on my balcony.
I started moving my body again.
I started improvising and igniting a fire inside of me again.
Shortly after, last summer, my life fell apart unexpectedly, and dance wasn’t my priority. I pushed it away (again).
It’s taken me 10 years to come back to this. 10 years to realize I was telling myself so many BS excuses why I couldn’t dance.
I don’t have time…
It’s too far away...
I can’t find a good school…
So here I am, slowly making my way back... Still healing and processing.
What did you LOVE that you haven’t prioritized? Give yourself a moment and think about. Maybe there’s a way to adding this thing back into your life…
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