How Past Trauma Can Block You Today

Hey Beautiful!

I am writing this email from my balcony in Bali, overlooking the jungle and feeling deeply relaxed and peaceful. The time here in Bali has been very healing, high vibing, amazing and wonderful. I've been able to connect with some mind-blowing women who have BIG dreams and who are an inspiration for me 24/7! Who inspires you on a daily basis? Just something to think about :)

My Past Trauma...

Doing a headstand has been a goal for me for a long time! And as you can see in the picture, I can do it now! Yayyyy!! I'd love to share this story with you, because it's truly a victory for me and my life hasn't always been this victorious at all...

*When I was little, I was bullied in school... The kids (especially girls!) didn't like me, because I was smart, ambitious and got good grades. In sports classes, I was often the last to be picked when we made groups! No-one wanted me in their group, because I was not "good enough". Sports classes were the worst for me, even until I finished high school. I hated it, because I always felt that pressure and hatred on me... I was often sad, depressed, and very unhappy!

*In lots of situations in my life after school, I subconsciously told myself (or that little voice in my head told me!) that I'm not good enough. This relates to so many things! I had boyfriend after boyfriend, on and off friendships, jobs where I was not paid adequately, and it completely destroyed my self-image. 

*I kept (and sometimes even keep) having blocks in sports. I workout with a personal trainer, and I face blocks every time I go! My little voice tells me "I can't do this 10th lift anymore!" Or "I can't do another 25 push-ups!". I AM BLOCKING MYSELF!! 

*Same thing happened with the headstand. I kept telling myself I can't to it! It's too difficult for me! Until I went to this yoga class where our teacher asked us to do headstand and all the not-at-all flexible women got into headstand!!! And I said to myself if they can do it, i can do it, too! So I started practicing, and now I can do it on my own!

It’s A Mindset Thing

If you tell yourself you can't do it, you can't. If you tell yourself you can do it, you can. Whatever you say to yourself is true. Because we manifest our thoughts and make it all come true.

The Mind Is Everything. What You Think, You Become - Buddha

I didn't realize this was going on in my life and blocked EVERYTHING until about 6 months ago! I digged really deep to uncover my blocks. You can certainly ignore those blocks, but they won't set you free. This energy will vibe with you every single day and manifest in fears, incidents, health issues etc. Subconsciously of course!

So?

Have you ever felt so blocked by something that kept you paralyzed? I know how it feels and it's my dream to support women get past those blocks. What one thing have you overcome that makes you feel victorious today? Comment below and tell me how you went from blocked to free and how you're feeling now! 😍 Or maybe there are blocks you're still working on. I'd love to hear from you.

Sending you love & beauty and lots of #BaliVibes...

MARTINA <3

PS: If you have never thought about where certain blocks or fears in your life might come from, take some time this weekend to do that. It is truly SHOCKING how much we carry from our childhood into our adult life. And it is truly AMAZING how you can heal all of this today and live a FREE and VIBRANT life moving forward, Just something to think about... Let me know if you want to talk about this.